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I know a number of women who waited to have children but then had trouble conceiving. For some, it took them years, and for others, it didn’t work at all. Lots of grief. I hope you’re doing okay. It was a really nice poem

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Thank you for your candor. That is heartbreaking. I will be okay.

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God sucks the way god put an expiration date on the woman’s fertility instead if the man’s, given who usually has the more intense bind..USUALLY!

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Sadly everyone goes through their own struggles, fair or not. Le sigh!

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Le sigh, ha!

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It is understandable to want to be a mother but there is still time to accomplish that. I know a woman who gave birth at 37 to a very healthy little girl. So life happens, it can still come when you least expect it.

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Thank you so much! 🙏

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Ah i see. You are not counting your eggs…and I so hope you get well, or better enough that you can have everything you want. I’m sorry I misunderstood!

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Please don't apologize! Thank you so much. That is my wish. I do my best trying to heal, but it's been a lot of downs lately. I'm not losing hope though! :)

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Nadia,

If you have a good partner you can do this. We have so much in common! I love the name Audrine! I was so angry at god when I was in my early 40’s, so afraid I would never be given a baby. But I got married at what…must have been 40….was pregnant in five months and my little girl was due on my very birthday. As a special treat from the God I am still angry with over the Problem of Evil (though my faith somehow never goes away), she was born 3 weeks early (completely finished growing, she just could have gotten bigger). So I was so close to 42 when I had her I say I was 42 (fiction or not?) and she is a spectacular child. Everyone says that, but mine really IS!

I know it’s easy to feel the loss already but you have a lot of time. You can raise your child sans daycare on your own terms if you find the right partner.

You have time! But I understand feeling you don’t! Throw some hope out there for great partner and child (i even demanded and GOT a girl!) and even if you are ill, with right partner you can do it. Right partner…well that is going to be a fiction when what you want is a child and you are coming up on 40….but I wouldn’t trade my defective ex for anything because we made a beautiful baby and he let me raise her just as I liked and just stay home and write and be her mommy and he took care of me, so I could use the little energy I had to take care of her. I did attachment parenting. No damn daycare.

I have lots of poems, fiction and non-fiction about wanting a baby. I already mentioned some…:)

Anyway so glad we met today and I wish you feel better and get everything you want. Remember name if your stack! Audrine what a beautiful name….you can too have what you want.

Condolences on your grandma.

—jen aka fishclamor

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Thank you for sharing your experience. You are brave and strong. I'm glad that happened for you, that you were able to have a child! This gives me hope that I still have time. I do have a wonderful partner. But I don't have the health right now for children, or giving birth. Maybe adoption will someday be a possibility. We'll see. I appreciate you!

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